Operation Red Bikini: My Journey is NOW

There has been much hooplah about Operation Red Bikini going around our little blogging community and Instagram thanks to the BEAUTIFUL, FUNNY, and ALWAYS MOTIVATING Kassie and Leigh Ann.  Being the sheep that I am, I instantly jumped on this bandwagon and went to work setting a goal for myself... this was harder than I thought.  I originally wanted to go with something wedding dress related since that is going to be my major outfit of the year, but with ORB ending at the end of May and my wedding being in November, that was a no go.  Plus, I wouldn't be able to post pics of my dress here so that was also a no go.  I think I have finally come up with a goal that is hopefully obtainable.

DRAMATIC PAUSE.....

By May 31st I will be able to get into my size 10 jeans.  I am currently sitting in a 16, so this is probably qutie a lofty goal, but with a lot of ass kicking and dedication and the support of some of my AMAZING friends Keyona, Erin, Lindsey..... ALL OF YOU,  I think can do this!

In order to reach my goal I have to do some serious planning, which is also going to help with another goal of mine... getting more organized.  Here's what I'm thinking

DIET:  I'm going to work harder to eat as clean as possible.  This means sticking with meal prepping for work weeks, and doing meal planning at home.  I also will be adding in some low/no carb days into my weeks on my off days from work.  Of course, I will be drinking water non stop and limiting my splurges since I have zero self control.  I have gotten back in the habit of logging everything into MFP, you can find me at jenla426.

EXERCISE:  I recently started the 30DS for the 3rd time and this time I WILL complete it.  I had a major setback last weekend and missed 3 days, but there are no more excuses.  I am itching to get back into my runs if it EVER STOPS RAINING here!!  I love my runs and honestly, it's what has worked best for me on my journey so far.  Tomorrow, we are going to look at a gym or two and I will be getting a membership in the near future.  I'm really excited about this.  I can't wait to get into some classes and have someone yelling at my fat ass to keep me going!

Now, a moment of realness.  I have had a terrible week.  Work has been awful, and I have seriously been considering what I got myself into.  I stepped on the scale Monday to find a 10lb gain over the weekend.  I assumed it was water weight from my splurges on food and alcohol mixed with PMS, and it would be gone within a few days back on track, and while I wouldn't have a loss this week, I'd at least break even.  NOT the case.  I weighed myself today, and while I have lost 4 of those lbs... I am still up 6lbs from last Friday.  This was a big hit,  I had a small pity party for myself, debated whether or not I could even do this, and did some ugly crying.  After a few minutes it hit me... I needed to get my shit together!  There is no I can't do it, because I have done it am doing it!  I have lost 50lbs and that is no small feat.  Is it enough? NO!  Have I had setbacks these past few months? ABSOLUTELY!  Can I keep going?  I HAVE TO! Am I content with where I am? HELL NO!  I'm a greedy bitch, I want more!!!!  I dragged myself to the living room and did the first day of Level 2 with Jillian.  It was awful, but I felt amazing after and I still feel amazing!

So this is my official entry into the Operation Red Bikini game and I'm in it to win it!!  This is a picture of me in my goal jeans today.... yea, those things stuck around my thighs.  On May 31st.. those WILL BE buttoned!!!

I had some tears in my eyes after taking this picture.  This definitely NOT how I want to see myself EVER again!  I reconsidered posting it at all, but the truth is, I need to put this out there.  Not to humiliate myself, but because this keeps me going.  Every time I want to eat crap or skip a workout, I can think of how I felt when I took this picture.  I will post updated progress pictures and I go, so join me in my ORB journey here and on Instagram @jenlynn426,  it's going to be a ride to say the least!

I hope everyone has an amazing weekend!!!