I'm Too Sleepy for a Witty Title

Good morning ladies! {well technically it's still Tuesday night, but whatever, you won't see this til the morning since you lucky biotches get to sleep at night}

It looks like everyone had a great weekend!  Mine wasn't too shabby, well what I got of it at least.  I got off work Saturday morning and proceeded to sleep for 13 hours... oops.  Ryan came home from work surprised to find me still crashed at 9:30 at night #nightshiftproblems.  Obviously I woke up beyond haaangry after not eating anything all day and was easily convinced that BWW would be a good idea, so I fed Jumbo Jenn chicken wings and potato wedges with reckless abandonment.  Sunday, we had to get Ryan fitted for his tux for a friend's wedding.  I had planned on also going ahead and picking out the stuff for our wedding also, since we drove up there together.  Apparently Ryan jumped ship on that plan and now we will be returning in a couple of months... oh well.  We then dropped my ring of for its 6 month inspection and to get it sized so that I can actually wear it without flinging it off my hand causing panic attacks.  I will get my ring back in about 10 days and it will be a size 6 {down 2 full sizes}... no more plus sized fingers for this girl, that's  the standard size!  We had lunch at Texas Roadhouse, where I once again ate like a ravenous piglet on steroids {maybe it's about PMS time?}.  Also, I ordered our wedding invitations.... way early, but I had a coupon code that was going to expire, and this cheapo can't miss out on 25% off!

I don't even want to get on the scale after the piglet fest, so I may step on tomorrow or I may just get on it whenever I feel like damage may be reversed... we shall see.  To make matters worse,  my phone's auxiliary port managed to get dust or something in it that is blocking my headphones from making a connection.... NO BUENO!  That means this girl couldn't hit the gym this morning{after already changing, getting on the treadmill, and starting my episode of Gossip Girl I tucked my tail and scooted out hoping to be unseen..... except I left my water bottle behind as evidence.... fail}  for what was going to be my 1 workout for the next few days due to my stupid job... I'll get to that in a few.  Hopefully Ryan can get it fixed soon, this girl can not run without distraction!

So, I was basically over this week before it even started.  Thanks to my sometimes fantastic some times shitty work schedule I only had 1.5 days between my work weeks, which means I was still exhausted when I came back to work Monday night.  To add to the fun, we are having a party for a co-worker Wednesday night {never ask a man what theme he wants for a party, he will pick pasta... and your inner skinny girl will cry and your fat your will dance}  so I have to stay up late and skip the gym when I get home this morning to make my pasta dish then fight the urge to dive hooves first into the vairety of gooey cheesey carbohydrates tonight.  Pasta is one of my weaknesses so to say I will have none is probably jsut a straight up lie, so I'm just going to try and load up on salad and keep my pasta intake to a minimum.  Adding more fun to my week is a certification class for 12 hours on Thursday from 3pm-3am Friday morning... this was a great idea in my head, but now that it's about to play out, not so much.  After adding up the math of travel time and getting ready time, I'm looking at about 4.5 hours of sleep between my 3 night stretch and this class.  I'm going to be a hot tranny mess... I just hope I get my certification!

Okay, so this turned into a novel, my bad yo.  I'll leave you here.  I will hopefully be back tomorrow with my big weekend dillemma...... dum dum dum!! Don't you just love the random shit i post from work when I am EXHAUSTED?!?  sorry again for no pics to keep it fun... i will overload you with my face soon!

Wedding Music

So it's Friday, which isn't so much the big day for blogging, and I hadn't planned on posting BUT work has been soooo boring over night that I figure why not throw my 4am random thoughts at y'all and see what comes back.

I've mentioned before that we are going with a more rustic barn theme for our wedding, and we have chosen a fiddle player for the ceremony, thinking that it would be a little sassy and different than just a violin.  We got a great deal and now it's time to pick the music.... enter crickets.  I have NO clue what I want played at the ceremony!

I sent an email asking for a song list so that I knew what to choose from and all I got back was "think of some songs that are special to you as a couple, and we will go from there"  NEWS FLASH: we are not that couple with special songs, in fact, we basically have complete opposite tastes in music. So now I am faced with telling this poor lady that is so excited to work with me for some unknown reason, that I got nothin.  I know that I don't want a bunch of cliche classical crap played, but that's the extent of it.

Here's where you guys come in.  Any ideas for ceremony music?  I need songs for while people are being seated, the bridal party, me, and the recession.

Happy Friday, I hope you guys have a great weekend!!   I am axiously awaiting 7am so that I can get to the gym and get my elliptical on and watch another episode of Gossip Girl {then promptly crash because I have to work again tonight}

Sorry no pics today, but I'm posting from work.... womp womp

PS- I just ordered my 10 day cleanse, so I will be good to start it in a couple of weeks!!!

Yep, I'm Still Alive

Hey Girl, Hey!!

So I have basically been MIA for the month of February from social media... no real reason I don't guess.  I just haven't felt particularly interesting as of late, and to be perfectly honest, I haven't made my blog a priority, and I should.... especially after reading Holly's recent post about what blogging means to her.  I realized that this lil ole' blog has done a lot for me, and the relationships I have made through it are important to me, so it's time to make it a priority and not worry how full my DVR is even though I am months behind on TV {don't worry, Nashville, I'm not talking about you.  I will ALWAYS make time for you and your overly sexy and talented cast}.  Funny how priorities change as your lifestyle changes, huh?

In case you forgot what I look like 

So, what have I been up to this past month?  Nothing really, more of the same.... work, sleep, try to catch up on laundry mountain but never succeeding, hitting the gym often but not enough, doing fairly well with my eating.... you know, life in general.

me after gettin all sweaty... I should NEVER be without makeup or a tan

I did decide that with my wedding being almost 8 months away now and that whole " I want a long engagement so I have plenty of time to plan and won't have to stress about anything as the wedding gets closer" plan that I had has now turned into the "I had a long engagement so that I could dick around for over half of it and not really get much done" plan.  So I have started actually planning some shit!   We picked out invitations, finally decided on a photographer, read: found a photographer that takes great pictures and doesn't want more than we make in a month, booked the fiddle player {now I just have to pick out ceremony music.... NOT EASY}, planned out most of the menu, decided on a theme for decor, and finalized bridesmaid dress choice.  Next week we will probably pick out the guys stuff since Ryan has to be fitted for a tux for a friend's wedding anyways.  So I'm feeling pretty productive on the wedding front.

Weight loss wise it's been okay this month.  I'm not sure exactly how many lbs I lost this month, but I'm feeling okay since clothes are getting looser.  I am loving the gym membership and hate that it took me so long to feel like it was worth the investment, it's basically the most important bill I pay each month.... well except for the house payment.  I love going and getting my burn on and being able to change up my workout.  I don't miss Jillian one bit... sorrynotsorry!  I was hating the treadmill... there was some knee and ankle pain happening, but I got me some new kicks last week and now I am on track... I ran my first treadmill 5K this morning and PR'd that bitch.... while watching Gossip Girl on my phone, Netflix App best thing ever! 

MFP told me this last week, I CAN"T wait for this day!!

Sorry Nike, this girl belongs to Asics now.... best shoes I've ever had!

Operation Red Bikini update.  Honestly, I'm not sure that I will get into those 10s by the end of May.  It may have been an overly ambitious goal to begin with, but I would be lying if I didn't say I could be busting ass harder.  I've had cheat days weekends and missed 6 straight days of workouts this month.  I did have one big NSV though.  I ordered a Jessica Simpson dress from my new favorite website 6pm.com { if you haven't heard of it, check it out, it is amazing.... designer labels up to 70% off and all the shipping I've seen is free!  Plus I got my order in 4 days}  I ordered a 14, thinking that it would probably run small being designer and I am currently still a solid 16, thinking that this would be a goal dress for engagements to wear with my cute $15 cowgirl boots in May {holla Target}.  However, I figured I would try it on for motivation to bust ass and IT FITS!!!  Not just kinda, if I suck in and don't breath, like I can zip it myself and sit down and even eat in it!  So I have decided that I will be wearing it to a friend's wedding at the end of March and will be ordering myself a smaller dress for engagements come May!!

My Jessica Simpson dress!! Retail $90, I paid $29.99!!  LOVE 6pm.com!

Okay, I feel like I have rambled enough.  I promise not to fall off the face of the earth again.  I plan to post regularly, get back into my link ups, and comment on blogs again... I've been silently stalking, so I still care about you, I'm just a lazy friend lately.... opps.  I also plan to start blowing up Instagram again so check out the life @jenlynn426!

This is the look I'm thinking about with the living room... LOTS of COLOR!

There's a lot of this here lately. Yes, that is my dog with his head stuck in the cat door... He is OBSESSED! Me... not so much

 And that is what you are missing by not following me on IG... booyah!

Here's what's on deck if you plan on waiting on the edge of your seat:
 ~I'm planning on an Advocare 10 day cleanse over my next 8 days off.... I don't want to try to do it while I'm working... I kind of forsee being bitchy during it and ain't nobody got time to deal with that.  I'm such a sheep so I'm finally breaking down, plus everyone seems to be getting great results
~ If all goes as planned I will be hitting 60lbs lost in the next couple of weeks so I will celebrate with progress pics and a recap of my journey in case you are a newer reader
~ I finally decided on painting a couple rooms in my house over the next few months so I'm sure there will be tons of anxiety for my to share with the world.

Feels good to be back, I've missed you loves! 

 

Foodaholics Not Anonymous

Happy Monday Hooks!

So, today is going to be a little more serious than usual, because I think I may have figured something out.... even though I already basically knew it.

Hello. My name is Jennifer, and I'm a Foodaholic. (Hi, Jennifer)

Food has always been a thing for me.  I never seemed to grasp that food is fuel concept.   Food is fun, a reward, entertainment, and my friend when I need it to be.

I'm not always a huge sharer of my feelings, but I'll pour my heart out to a medium pizza in an instant.

So, here are some feelings for you guys.

My family dog died at 2am Friday morning, and I got the text from my dad while I was at work.   I understand why my dad did it this way, he probably was really upset, but didn't have anyone to be sad with because of how extremely devastated my mom was.... that dog was my brother.

I know some of you are thinking, a dog, really?  Yep.  My family is one of those families where our pets are more than pets, they are our children and best friends.  Brewster meant so much to my mom, and all of us and losing him is going to be tough.  He was older and had some joint issues, but we were not really expecting him to just die like that.

This is where MY issues come in.  For the past 3 years now, I have lived at least 2 hours from home.  I feel like I miss out on a lot, good and bad.  And it killed me that I wasn't there for my dog and my mom when they needed me.  My mom told me not to come home, because she didn't want me driving upset and because there wasn't anything I could do.  So I stayed home.

So, what did I do this weekend?  I binged... I ate myself sick on whatever junk I wanted, and I honestly had tried to fight it.  It started as I was going to have wings on Friday as a cheat meal, because I was sad... that turned into a weekend full of pizza, cheesey bread, chocolate, cookies, and taco bell.  I also couldn't bring myself to go to the gym, probably because of all the shit I loaded myself down with.  And I never once, thought of the consequences .. it was a mindless weekend of shoving anything down my face hole that I could fit, and my last night I felt disgusting... busted can of biscuits doesn't even begin to describe it.

Things started to come together for me last night, but I came full circle this morning.  I can't do this to myself anymore.  I have to find a way to stop letting food control me when the going gets tough.  I do amazing when all is right in my life and I have a routine, but as soon as there is trouble in the road, I lose it.  Food was not my friend this weekend... I still am heartbroken over losing my Brewster pig, and still feel guilty for not being there with my mom when they came to take him away and today when they will bring his urn home.  And now, I am adding the guilt of what I have done to myself.   Who knows what kind of damage I did on the scale, but mostly, I let myself down... I was weak when I should have been strong.  I didn't reach out for anyone... I just ate.  And now I feel 10x worse.... food was my enemy this weekend.

So today, I've started the detox process in my body and I'm ready to get back in the saddle, and I'm going to take a long look at my relationship with food.  I don't really know how to see food as fuel alone, but I have to find a way.  I deserve that feeling that I have for myself when I have a great week and I don't deserve to feel like this.  I worked too hard to get to where I am to go back now... and those size 10 jeans want to be worn again.

Since I hate having things be completely negative, here's a bit of happy for my Monday.

He doesn't really like his picture taken, but this is EXACTLY what he looks like!  I even wanted to name him Toothless

This is Obi.  We noticed a bunch of cats running around the past couple of weeks and put some food out for them, since it has decided to be cold in Alabama again.  Friday night we saw that there was a TINY very scrawny little kitten in the bunch and that they would push him away from the food.  He finally gave up and crawled into the box we had put out since it has been raining.  When the others left, we noticed that he was still in the box.  We picked it up and there he was.  Seconds after picking him up he was curled up in my arms purring and I was a goner.

For the record, I hate cats.  I have never had one, and they are mean, and weird, and I am just a dog person every step of the way.  But this little guy wasn't going to survive without me, and honestly, he caught me on a good day.  I couldn't stand the thought of another animal dying that day, so we brought him home.  I have no clue what to do with him, and he spends most of his time hiding in the laundry room, and Brick is killing me with the endless curiosity over him, and crying when he can't be all up in his grill.  I guess I'll figure it out.   It does make me feel good to know that I saved him.

Well, I'm back to work tonight, and I'm going to frantically try to catch up on some things around here before I have to get my nap in.  I am ready to the fresh start this week, however, I most likely will not be participating in the weigh in link up this week.... I don't really see they point in adding more sadness to the plate, but I will be back next week fo sho!

Thanks for reading, today

 Brewster aka Sir Jiucy Jiggles McBiggins

1/18/06-2/1/13

 My birthday cake was on the counter

Ice cream was one of his favorites besides Velveeta

Wednesday Weigh In

Happy Wednesday..... or Monday if you're me, womp womp.

It's a nasty day where I live, and it's going to be perfect for being lazy and napping until time to go to work.  I'd rather it be nasty when I'm working anyways, I hate missing out on pretty days, especially since it will be 90+ degrees out before I know it.

So, in Wednesday tradition, it's time to like up with my gals Erin and Alex for Weigh in Wednesday!!

I was a good girl and managed not to step on the scale since last Wednesday, even though I wanted to soooo bad I thought I was going to die.

So after last week's sad little loss, I buckled down and did what I knew to do..... AFTER I pigged out on Buffalo Wild Wings, which I have wanted everyday since.  I logged everything into MFP and stayed in my calories, drank water like it was going out of style, and hit the gym for at least an hour 6 out of the 7 days.   I tried several different classes and did an arm and leg routine that I found on Pinterest.  I felt amazing all week.  I am loving the new gym and actually look forward to going, unlike the 30DS which was a chore and I hate EVERY second of it. Sorry I'm not sorry, Jillian.  The only thing I regret is that I didn't get  a run in this week, but I will start working them in again soon.

I know, hurry up and get to the results already, I have 952 other weigh ins to read!!

So I came it with a 3.2lb loss this week and I am PUMPED!!  I am right at 55lbs down total and made my way into a new weight decade!  Definitely a good week, and worth all that it took to get there!  This week will be more of the same, with today being my off day.

I know I am being totally lazy with the pictures as of late, therefore making my posts boring, but I am sooo lazy right now... I can't miss out on storm sleeps!  I will get a photo post up this week and you can see them all on Instagram @jenlynn426.  I'll do a photo dump later this week or weekend!

Enjoy your day lovies!!

Help Me I'm Challenged

Happy Tuesday laaaadiiieeeessss

So, I truly don't have anything insightful to say in this post, but do I ever?

I really just needs some helps.

I have decided that since we own this house, and have been here for almost a year, maybe we could make it look like we plan to stay a while.  Here's my dilemma... I have no freakin clue where to start!  I have always been one of those girls who is like "oooo that's cute, gimme!"  nothing really matches in my house and I don't have a general theme to any room, and that's how I like it.  However, I am having a hard time trying to find my style.  I am starting with the living room since it's right when you walk in the door..... duh.  I have an old coffee table that I am going to re-paint a minty color for the room and kind of just take it from there.  The problem lies in this.... if I go with the lighter/brighter colors where do my darker pieces go?  I know I said that I don't like things to match, really, but can dark blues, greens, reds, golds go in the same room as mint, yellow, pink, etc without looking stupid?!?!  I lover these pieces and can't bear to get rid of them, but I just don't know where to go.  Plus, I'm still paying for the funky green floral chair so BLAHHH.

I thought about moving the stuff to the bedroom, but then it doesn't flow with my ideas for the bedroom so, meh.

Second.... painting?  It's a very scandalous subject I'm learning.  All of our walls are the neutral beige-esque that all builders use so that the buyers can "see themselves in the blank space"  complete with the shitty quality budget saving paint.  A big part of me really wants to paint or hang funky wall papers to liven up the space, but when I consulted my mother (as all normal nearly 26 year old women do before making ANY decision..... yea, I have a few issues to work out)  she told me that was not a good idea and that we should just repaint with the same color, but with better quality paint and rely on decor to liven up the spaces.  This was not what I wanted to hear.  I want my house to be bright and fun and reflect me, and I thought painting would be an easy way to do that, and if we don't like the color, all we have to do is repaint.  Am I missing something in all this?  HELP ME!!  I am so design challenged, it is killing me!

Perhaps it would have been more helpful if I posted pictures of said items, but I can't bring myself to get off the couch and go through the effort of actually taking/uploading/posting pictures right now.  Just keeping it truth, ladies.

Please give me guidance/advice/ideas/your experiences with decorating!  I just don't even know where to start.  I love our house so much and I want to make it ours.... and on a super tight budget, I am also very cheap!

See y'all tomorrow for weigh in!!  It has been killing me not stepping on the scale everyday and trusting my ass kickings at the gym and strict MFP entries to get me somewhere good!  I may die if there is a gain or no loss.... just putting that out there!

Random 5:30 Randomness

Hello my lovlies!

While most of you sexy things are about to roll out of bed to start ALMOST the end of the work week, I am waking up from a nap to prepare for the start of mine... ahhh the glory of working night shift.  I basically sleep when I'm tired and do crazy things to get myself tired when I need to be OR suffer the consequences.  Totes worth it!  {Do we still say totes?  I apparently get left behind on cool lingo... I humiliated Ryan by saying "winning" in public recently}  So, here I am up at 4:30 cleaning my kitchen, jamming to my "southern pop" since it's not "real country", doing a little meal prepping for the week, and getting ready to stalk the Bible aka Pinterest for some workouts to take to the gym with me, and hopefully planning out a gym schedule for the week and doing a shit-ton of laundry..... I should be able to get all this done and be tired by noon right? We shall see

About to leave for my first gym workout... you HAVE to take selfies, right?

So, this is just going to be some random thoughts that I know you all care to here, but since I am trying to earn an over share award this year I'll go with it.

Firstly, I am in the thought process of changing up the blog...  I had no clue what I was doing when I started, and let's be honest, still don't.  It's just time for a change.  I'm thinking up a new name, and my cheap self is debating sucking it up and paying for a design... WOOT WOOT!  Just Jenn was just a random thought when I couldn't think of anything better, fitting, but boring.  How are you ladies so creative???  I have a couple new ideas, no thanks to my charming fiance, who has contributied "Boats and Hoes" with a nautical themed page and "Bitches Ain't Shit, but Hoes and Tricks"...... speechless? me too.

Last night was our first workout at our new gym and I LOVED it!!!  The only bad thing was that we went at the busy time so it was packed, and we had to compete for the classroom.  Angie and I overheard a girl on the phone talking about a class being about over and she would get spin set up for them.  So we dumped our stuff and tried to beat her to the room.... She came up behind us right as we were picking a class and said that they were gonna do spin, and my polite gene took over.  We ended up doing Ab Attack with them and then they did spin.... BOO.  The video was great!  It definitely attacked my abs and the instructor was the Jamaican Arnold Schwarzenegger,  "one, two, tree"   I loved it!!  I'm definitely feeling it in my fatty gut now.  Then I hit the stair climber for a fat burner session and my legs were jelly after.... YAY!!  I did a few arm exercises, and I really need to find an arm routine for me.  I'm not much of a machines girl, so I need to rock those free weights and bars!  I can't wait to go back today, and I'm going to pack a gym bag for after work! Gym Rat in Training right here!

The Carrie Underwood leg workout.... it's a bitch!

possible arm workout?

After my great workout, I did the exact opposite of what you should do....  went to Buffalo Wild Wings!  I had been craving wings all day, and made the mistakes {yes 2} of telling the mens about it and then mentioning that I had never had Buffalo Wild Wings before.  I will say that it was DELICIOUS and in the fat kid glory, we decided that once a month we should have Wingsday Wednesday..... and then I put that shit into MFP and died a little inside..... 1060 calories!!!!  Thanks to my great workout I didn't go over, but still!!!  UGH!!  I'm not going to sweat it too bad, it's over and done, and there's nothing left to do, but pick back up.

soooooo much fat ass goodness!

I am not really much of a lipstick girl, but I decided to give it a go after seeing how smokin hot some of my blogging idols look with some color on their lips.  This was the result.... not sure how I feel about it, I used a coral color.  More than anything I decided that I must invest in some tanning towels or a spray tan  ASAP.

CASPER!!  I also need better lighing in my house {studio}

Never take R shopping with you!  Idk about you're men, but he is like the cock block of shopping.  He talks me out of buying everything!  I did manage to purchase a couple new sports bras and work out tanks... HOLLA Old Navy with your $5 tanks!  But everything else was shot down.  He even said "I hate being that guy who shuts down all the spending".  So my fun day of shopping was killed before it even began.... I will be going alone next week, thank you.

And finally..... fake eyelashes.  I have recently been on a mission for amazing eyelashes, I was not blessed with long, flirty lashes, and I hate anyone that was.  I do love my double extend mascara, but I got greedy and wanted more.  So, when I saw fake lashes for $1 at Target, I was all over it.  I tried them one day last week, they weren't awful... I figured that it would get easier to apply them the more I used them, so no where to go but up.  Then the edge of one started slipping while we were in line at the car tag place, and I made the mistake of telling R that I had tried the fake lashes.  Never missing the opportunity to make fun of me, I have been catching Hell ever since.  Everything I do would be made better if only I had fake eyelashes on.  I thought I had finally lived it down, until the other night.  {TMI alert}  We had some pretty awesome adult frisky time... after we were done, he asked if I was wearing fake eyelashes.  When I said no, he said "too bad, I would have *^% harder if you had been".  I am so grateful that I will never have to go without incessant teasing in my life.

The falsies.... not sure how I felt

Happy Thursday ladies!!  I hope you all have a great weekend! xoxoxo!

What are your favorite arm workouts?

I'm not really marrying an ass... we just play :)