Moving Day!

Hey Lovies!!

I'm sure a few of you wondered where I went for a few weeks, and then were completely devastated when I feel off the edge of the blogging world.  No?  Your lives went on completely as usual and you found even better weight loss to read? Nay I say!!

Anyways, I'm back with a new blog and the next chapter in my journey.  So if you miss your daily dose of random thoughts and horrible writing skills follow me over to Keeping Up With Jenfo.  It's wayyyyy cooler than those crazy ass Kardashians, and much easier to follow!  I hope you guys will continue to join me on my crazy way through my 20s and into smaller jeans!

WIW & Cleanse Results + Updated Goals

It's Wednesday!!!  Which for many of you means you are halfway through your work week.... today is my Monday.... BOO, but since I only have a 2 day work week this week, it is also my Thursday.. WOOP!

There is a lot to touch on today, so let's get in it!

Yesterday I finished the Advocare 10 day cleanse.  I have never done a cleanse before, but I liked this one a lot.  I never felt bad during it, and acheived everything I expected with it.  I had started craving junk food again, which I hadn't in a while, and was majorly slacking in the cooking at home department.... we would eat out several nights a week.  I was feeling like I did in the beginning of the journey.  I wanted to eat right, but I just couldn't kick the bad habits.  NO MORE.  After following the cleanse, I don't crave garbage, BIG WIN!  I also don't feel like I'm starving all the time.  I don't know that I have way more energy than I did before, but I feel great so what is there to complain about.  The evil fiber drink??  I was nervous about it after reading what people had to say about it, but I used the peaches and cream flavor, and it wasn't bad at all. I did not have to stay in a 10 foot radius of my toilet.  It really is a gentle cleanser, and I only went once each day.... maybe twice a couple of days, so nothing to be scared of.  Like I said yesterday, if you want to try this cleanse, I know a great girl that sells the stuff and I can put you in touch!

peaches n' cream all the way!  just make sure to fully dissolve it, no one likes chunks in their junk

Now for what you all care about...... I lost 9lbs in 10 days!  Majorly excited there!  I had been moving up and down with the same 3 lbs for a while now so I feel like I have broken through a plateau and it has given me so much motivation!!  I will say that the clean eating was a big factor, as well as, cutting the carbs (I didn't eat any rice or bread) and dairy (the only dairy I had was 1/2 cup of 1% milk when I made my protein shakes).  I plan on keeping my eating almost as clean as on the cleanse, I will incorporate some rice back in and the occasional bread.  I am also going to say, that some of the weight I lost was probably muscle, which I am NOT happy about.  I haven't worked out in 2 weeks or more, mostly due to whatever disease has decided to colonize in my lungs, but that is about to end and I am kicking the gym into high gear again!

As far as updating my goals, my next mini goal is withing reach... ONE-DERLAND!!  I have 10 more pounds to go and I will get there by my birthday, April 26th.  I also bought a dress to wear in a wedding in May that is a size too small, so that dress will fit!!!  And engagement pictures are May 11th, so I have those outfits to rock in the next couple of months!

my old scale died so I got this new PINK one!  I am obviously scraping for photo material

Hope everyone has a great rest of the week!  I may not be back til Monday, due to work and getting ready for our trip home this weekend to attend Ryan's best friends wedding.  I am totally excited/nervous to see our friends... I haven't seen a lot of them since starting this journey 63lbs ago!  I will say, I am super excited to eat me some wedding cake though!!!  What? It's rude not to!

 My Jessica Simpson dress that I am wearing this weekend!  My first designer dress, I was too fat for most labels :)

Instagram repeat, but I am trying to find a semi nice way to pull my hair bad for this wedding, plus I got new highlights last week :)

What the ISH BISH

Once again... I am the laziest Blogger of the Universe.  I just can't seem to get my shit together to write a post.  I honestly blame Blair Waldorf.  I can't stop watching Gossip Girl to save my life, and have had to quit cold turkey.  I haven't watched in over a week, and I'm dying on the inside.  Plus, I have been a little on the busy side... no real excuse, but I'm going with it.

So here's what you've missed over in my little corner of the world.

I have officially applied to grad school!!  After a very painful personal essay that required evidence based literature to support my discussion on why it is important for nurses to have a master's degree, I am crossing my fingers that I did not waste $45.  I mean come on... we all know that they answer to why I want a Master's Degree is because the hospital will pay for it, it will nearly double my current salary, and most importantly, I will never have to wipe someone's ass again.  So accept me because I'm a bad ass, Sincerely Jenn.

Today completes my 10 day Advocare cleanse.  All in all, it did exactly what I hoped it would do.  I got a boost in my weight loss (more to come tommorrow with WIW.... yes, I will actually post again) and kicked my cravings for the junk food that I was starting to battle again since I've been eating so shitty lately.  Do I feel better and back on track? Yep.  Do I feel like a brand new human being with a new lease on life? No.    Will I do it again? Definitely.  If there is anyone left under the sun who has not tried this, and is interested, hit me up.  I know an AMAZING gal who sells this stuff and I would be happy to get you in touch and answer any questions you may have.  And have no fear about shitting your pants in public.... it only happens the first day.  I kid, I kid.

I have made a little progress in the wedding planning front.  Our invites arrived in the mail and I got our music list together with our violinist yesterday.  I was really nervous about selecting music, because I had no clue where to start, but it went fantastical!  We were able to come up with some great song choices that are way outside the box and perfect!  She even said that I am her favorite bride she's worked with in a while.... BAM!

I have also been sickly these past couple of weeks which has not worked out well for the gym life, but now that I can breathe out of both nostrils and my chest doesn't rattle with each inhale I will be back to murdering fat tonight.  And I am happy to say that the fiance will be joining me after stepping on our new pink scale and  listening to me make his belly button talk in a red neck voice.... maybe you had to be there for that one.

So, thanks for hanging with my through my multiple absences.  I am hoping to be back for good, I love reading your blogs and love all of my followers.  I don't really have any great pictures to share with you today, so I'll just leave you with this.

I died a little once I realized that the picture wasn't what I had hoped

I mean SERIOUSLY!!!!!

Your Welcome!  Come back tomorrow for WIW to talk about my cleanse results and re-vamped plans

I'm Too Sleepy for a Witty Title

Good morning ladies! {well technically it's still Tuesday night, but whatever, you won't see this til the morning since you lucky biotches get to sleep at night}

It looks like everyone had a great weekend!  Mine wasn't too shabby, well what I got of it at least.  I got off work Saturday morning and proceeded to sleep for 13 hours... oops.  Ryan came home from work surprised to find me still crashed at 9:30 at night #nightshiftproblems.  Obviously I woke up beyond haaangry after not eating anything all day and was easily convinced that BWW would be a good idea, so I fed Jumbo Jenn chicken wings and potato wedges with reckless abandonment.  Sunday, we had to get Ryan fitted for his tux for a friend's wedding.  I had planned on also going ahead and picking out the stuff for our wedding also, since we drove up there together.  Apparently Ryan jumped ship on that plan and now we will be returning in a couple of months... oh well.  We then dropped my ring of for its 6 month inspection and to get it sized so that I can actually wear it without flinging it off my hand causing panic attacks.  I will get my ring back in about 10 days and it will be a size 6 {down 2 full sizes}... no more plus sized fingers for this girl, that's  the standard size!  We had lunch at Texas Roadhouse, where I once again ate like a ravenous piglet on steroids {maybe it's about PMS time?}.  Also, I ordered our wedding invitations.... way early, but I had a coupon code that was going to expire, and this cheapo can't miss out on 25% off!

I don't even want to get on the scale after the piglet fest, so I may step on tomorrow or I may just get on it whenever I feel like damage may be reversed... we shall see.  To make matters worse,  my phone's auxiliary port managed to get dust or something in it that is blocking my headphones from making a connection.... NO BUENO!  That means this girl couldn't hit the gym this morning{after already changing, getting on the treadmill, and starting my episode of Gossip Girl I tucked my tail and scooted out hoping to be unseen..... except I left my water bottle behind as evidence.... fail}  for what was going to be my 1 workout for the next few days due to my stupid job... I'll get to that in a few.  Hopefully Ryan can get it fixed soon, this girl can not run without distraction!

So, I was basically over this week before it even started.  Thanks to my sometimes fantastic some times shitty work schedule I only had 1.5 days between my work weeks, which means I was still exhausted when I came back to work Monday night.  To add to the fun, we are having a party for a co-worker Wednesday night {never ask a man what theme he wants for a party, he will pick pasta... and your inner skinny girl will cry and your fat your will dance}  so I have to stay up late and skip the gym when I get home this morning to make my pasta dish then fight the urge to dive hooves first into the vairety of gooey cheesey carbohydrates tonight.  Pasta is one of my weaknesses so to say I will have none is probably jsut a straight up lie, so I'm just going to try and load up on salad and keep my pasta intake to a minimum.  Adding more fun to my week is a certification class for 12 hours on Thursday from 3pm-3am Friday morning... this was a great idea in my head, but now that it's about to play out, not so much.  After adding up the math of travel time and getting ready time, I'm looking at about 4.5 hours of sleep between my 3 night stretch and this class.  I'm going to be a hot tranny mess... I just hope I get my certification!

Okay, so this turned into a novel, my bad yo.  I'll leave you here.  I will hopefully be back tomorrow with my big weekend dillemma...... dum dum dum!! Don't you just love the random shit i post from work when I am EXHAUSTED?!?  sorry again for no pics to keep it fun... i will overload you with my face soon!

Wedding Music

So it's Friday, which isn't so much the big day for blogging, and I hadn't planned on posting BUT work has been soooo boring over night that I figure why not throw my 4am random thoughts at y'all and see what comes back.

I've mentioned before that we are going with a more rustic barn theme for our wedding, and we have chosen a fiddle player for the ceremony, thinking that it would be a little sassy and different than just a violin.  We got a great deal and now it's time to pick the music.... enter crickets.  I have NO clue what I want played at the ceremony!

I sent an email asking for a song list so that I knew what to choose from and all I got back was "think of some songs that are special to you as a couple, and we will go from there"  NEWS FLASH: we are not that couple with special songs, in fact, we basically have complete opposite tastes in music. So now I am faced with telling this poor lady that is so excited to work with me for some unknown reason, that I got nothin.  I know that I don't want a bunch of cliche classical crap played, but that's the extent of it.

Here's where you guys come in.  Any ideas for ceremony music?  I need songs for while people are being seated, the bridal party, me, and the recession.

Happy Friday, I hope you guys have a great weekend!!   I am axiously awaiting 7am so that I can get to the gym and get my elliptical on and watch another episode of Gossip Girl {then promptly crash because I have to work again tonight}

Sorry no pics today, but I'm posting from work.... womp womp

PS- I just ordered my 10 day cleanse, so I will be good to start it in a couple of weeks!!!

Yep, I'm Still Alive

Hey Girl, Hey!!

So I have basically been MIA for the month of February from social media... no real reason I don't guess.  I just haven't felt particularly interesting as of late, and to be perfectly honest, I haven't made my blog a priority, and I should.... especially after reading Holly's recent post about what blogging means to her.  I realized that this lil ole' blog has done a lot for me, and the relationships I have made through it are important to me, so it's time to make it a priority and not worry how full my DVR is even though I am months behind on TV {don't worry, Nashville, I'm not talking about you.  I will ALWAYS make time for you and your overly sexy and talented cast}.  Funny how priorities change as your lifestyle changes, huh?

In case you forgot what I look like 

So, what have I been up to this past month?  Nothing really, more of the same.... work, sleep, try to catch up on laundry mountain but never succeeding, hitting the gym often but not enough, doing fairly well with my eating.... you know, life in general.

me after gettin all sweaty... I should NEVER be without makeup or a tan

I did decide that with my wedding being almost 8 months away now and that whole " I want a long engagement so I have plenty of time to plan and won't have to stress about anything as the wedding gets closer" plan that I had has now turned into the "I had a long engagement so that I could dick around for over half of it and not really get much done" plan.  So I have started actually planning some shit!   We picked out invitations, finally decided on a photographer, read: found a photographer that takes great pictures and doesn't want more than we make in a month, booked the fiddle player {now I just have to pick out ceremony music.... NOT EASY}, planned out most of the menu, decided on a theme for decor, and finalized bridesmaid dress choice.  Next week we will probably pick out the guys stuff since Ryan has to be fitted for a tux for a friend's wedding anyways.  So I'm feeling pretty productive on the wedding front.

Weight loss wise it's been okay this month.  I'm not sure exactly how many lbs I lost this month, but I'm feeling okay since clothes are getting looser.  I am loving the gym membership and hate that it took me so long to feel like it was worth the investment, it's basically the most important bill I pay each month.... well except for the house payment.  I love going and getting my burn on and being able to change up my workout.  I don't miss Jillian one bit... sorrynotsorry!  I was hating the treadmill... there was some knee and ankle pain happening, but I got me some new kicks last week and now I am on track... I ran my first treadmill 5K this morning and PR'd that bitch.... while watching Gossip Girl on my phone, Netflix App best thing ever! 

MFP told me this last week, I CAN"T wait for this day!!

Sorry Nike, this girl belongs to Asics now.... best shoes I've ever had!

Operation Red Bikini update.  Honestly, I'm not sure that I will get into those 10s by the end of May.  It may have been an overly ambitious goal to begin with, but I would be lying if I didn't say I could be busting ass harder.  I've had cheat days weekends and missed 6 straight days of workouts this month.  I did have one big NSV though.  I ordered a Jessica Simpson dress from my new favorite website 6pm.com { if you haven't heard of it, check it out, it is amazing.... designer labels up to 70% off and all the shipping I've seen is free!  Plus I got my order in 4 days}  I ordered a 14, thinking that it would probably run small being designer and I am currently still a solid 16, thinking that this would be a goal dress for engagements to wear with my cute $15 cowgirl boots in May {holla Target}.  However, I figured I would try it on for motivation to bust ass and IT FITS!!!  Not just kinda, if I suck in and don't breath, like I can zip it myself and sit down and even eat in it!  So I have decided that I will be wearing it to a friend's wedding at the end of March and will be ordering myself a smaller dress for engagements come May!!

My Jessica Simpson dress!! Retail $90, I paid $29.99!!  LOVE 6pm.com!

Okay, I feel like I have rambled enough.  I promise not to fall off the face of the earth again.  I plan to post regularly, get back into my link ups, and comment on blogs again... I've been silently stalking, so I still care about you, I'm just a lazy friend lately.... opps.  I also plan to start blowing up Instagram again so check out the life @jenlynn426!

This is the look I'm thinking about with the living room... LOTS of COLOR!

There's a lot of this here lately. Yes, that is my dog with his head stuck in the cat door... He is OBSESSED! Me... not so much

 And that is what you are missing by not following me on IG... booyah!

Here's what's on deck if you plan on waiting on the edge of your seat:
 ~I'm planning on an Advocare 10 day cleanse over my next 8 days off.... I don't want to try to do it while I'm working... I kind of forsee being bitchy during it and ain't nobody got time to deal with that.  I'm such a sheep so I'm finally breaking down, plus everyone seems to be getting great results
~ If all goes as planned I will be hitting 60lbs lost in the next couple of weeks so I will celebrate with progress pics and a recap of my journey in case you are a newer reader
~ I finally decided on painting a couple rooms in my house over the next few months so I'm sure there will be tons of anxiety for my to share with the world.

Feels good to be back, I've missed you loves! 

 

Foodaholics Not Anonymous

Happy Monday Hooks!

So, today is going to be a little more serious than usual, because I think I may have figured something out.... even though I already basically knew it.

Hello. My name is Jennifer, and I'm a Foodaholic. (Hi, Jennifer)

Food has always been a thing for me.  I never seemed to grasp that food is fuel concept.   Food is fun, a reward, entertainment, and my friend when I need it to be.

I'm not always a huge sharer of my feelings, but I'll pour my heart out to a medium pizza in an instant.

So, here are some feelings for you guys.

My family dog died at 2am Friday morning, and I got the text from my dad while I was at work.   I understand why my dad did it this way, he probably was really upset, but didn't have anyone to be sad with because of how extremely devastated my mom was.... that dog was my brother.

I know some of you are thinking, a dog, really?  Yep.  My family is one of those families where our pets are more than pets, they are our children and best friends.  Brewster meant so much to my mom, and all of us and losing him is going to be tough.  He was older and had some joint issues, but we were not really expecting him to just die like that.

This is where MY issues come in.  For the past 3 years now, I have lived at least 2 hours from home.  I feel like I miss out on a lot, good and bad.  And it killed me that I wasn't there for my dog and my mom when they needed me.  My mom told me not to come home, because she didn't want me driving upset and because there wasn't anything I could do.  So I stayed home.

So, what did I do this weekend?  I binged... I ate myself sick on whatever junk I wanted, and I honestly had tried to fight it.  It started as I was going to have wings on Friday as a cheat meal, because I was sad... that turned into a weekend full of pizza, cheesey bread, chocolate, cookies, and taco bell.  I also couldn't bring myself to go to the gym, probably because of all the shit I loaded myself down with.  And I never once, thought of the consequences .. it was a mindless weekend of shoving anything down my face hole that I could fit, and my last night I felt disgusting... busted can of biscuits doesn't even begin to describe it.

Things started to come together for me last night, but I came full circle this morning.  I can't do this to myself anymore.  I have to find a way to stop letting food control me when the going gets tough.  I do amazing when all is right in my life and I have a routine, but as soon as there is trouble in the road, I lose it.  Food was not my friend this weekend... I still am heartbroken over losing my Brewster pig, and still feel guilty for not being there with my mom when they came to take him away and today when they will bring his urn home.  And now, I am adding the guilt of what I have done to myself.   Who knows what kind of damage I did on the scale, but mostly, I let myself down... I was weak when I should have been strong.  I didn't reach out for anyone... I just ate.  And now I feel 10x worse.... food was my enemy this weekend.

So today, I've started the detox process in my body and I'm ready to get back in the saddle, and I'm going to take a long look at my relationship with food.  I don't really know how to see food as fuel alone, but I have to find a way.  I deserve that feeling that I have for myself when I have a great week and I don't deserve to feel like this.  I worked too hard to get to where I am to go back now... and those size 10 jeans want to be worn again.

Since I hate having things be completely negative, here's a bit of happy for my Monday.

He doesn't really like his picture taken, but this is EXACTLY what he looks like!  I even wanted to name him Toothless

This is Obi.  We noticed a bunch of cats running around the past couple of weeks and put some food out for them, since it has decided to be cold in Alabama again.  Friday night we saw that there was a TINY very scrawny little kitten in the bunch and that they would push him away from the food.  He finally gave up and crawled into the box we had put out since it has been raining.  When the others left, we noticed that he was still in the box.  We picked it up and there he was.  Seconds after picking him up he was curled up in my arms purring and I was a goner.

For the record, I hate cats.  I have never had one, and they are mean, and weird, and I am just a dog person every step of the way.  But this little guy wasn't going to survive without me, and honestly, he caught me on a good day.  I couldn't stand the thought of another animal dying that day, so we brought him home.  I have no clue what to do with him, and he spends most of his time hiding in the laundry room, and Brick is killing me with the endless curiosity over him, and crying when he can't be all up in his grill.  I guess I'll figure it out.   It does make me feel good to know that I saved him.

Well, I'm back to work tonight, and I'm going to frantically try to catch up on some things around here before I have to get my nap in.  I am ready to the fresh start this week, however, I most likely will not be participating in the weigh in link up this week.... I don't really see they point in adding more sadness to the plate, but I will be back next week fo sho!

Thanks for reading, today

 Brewster aka Sir Jiucy Jiggles McBiggins

1/18/06-2/1/13

 My birthday cake was on the counter

Ice cream was one of his favorites besides Velveeta